3days praying and counting

I am scared to death ! The next 3 days are going to determine my next chapter. I have never had so much riding on something getting done and depending on other people to help me get it done. I don't know what to do to make this happen I have always ended up quitting. I can't this time. I have to win ! I deserve to know what winning feels like at least once. Dear God please stay with me ! Let me come back and describe the winning feeling on Wednesday.

What is the lesson here?

                         What is the lesson here?

I have tried twice to be married. So far no luck at it being successful. I dont understand how people do it. I didn't have a good example to learn from growing up so Ive been winging it and not successfully to this point. The only thing I have been successful at is getting myself hurt more each time. My last marriage changed me.

August 18,2025

I just ran across the court papers from the custody case.. the papers from Memes will regarding Aaron and whatever money she gave him. My Mother's name on documents from EECU Memes credit union that had to do with Aaron. My Mother had no clue what anything meant had no clue about any financial stuff, mortgage stuff, or any fucking thing ! All she wanted was to push me out of the way and put herself in a position she should have never been in. Then she decides to put her nose in Johns business and ended up killing him in the end. That's my opinion.